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Sunday, June 13, 2004
"I loved you. You were the one person I thought I could
never live without. You were perfect to me,
even though others saw you differently then I did.
To me, you were special.
Then one day, you changed.
You became like everyone else,
and stopped being who you were, and what made you special.
You c h a n g e d.
The one person I couldn't live without,
is now the person I don't want to know anymore. I tried to hold on,
but the person I fell in love with no longer exists.
It feels as if you have died,
and with that, a part of me has died too.
Now I must live only on memories of who you used to be,
how how much I am going to miss you.."
Yes I wrote this lol. Just thought i would let all of you read this. I know some of you already asked if you could steal it for your profiles lol. My major is Journalism, so obviously I write a lot.. but this particular piece of mine one of my professors pulled out and wanted me to enter it in somewhere, I don't remember where though lol. I wrote it about my ex boyfriend lol, and didn't expect it to be something good. Oh well, I guess ex boyfriends are good for something LOL.
well 2nite i worked and then went out w. amy and (my boys from work) Elia, Alexi, Evan, and Chris. I love them all.. they are the greatest and some of the biggest sweethearts I have ever met.
Well I must get to bed.. I really do want to write a lot more and update you on a lot I have been doing.. but my brother is graduating tmro! yay! so I must get some rest. and by the way, I tried to type proper for once because SOMEONE was yelling at me for it.. ass.. lol.
<3caits Posted at 02:44 am by cait411
Friday, June 04, 2004
well i was going to update bout my weekend.. but it decided not to save my entry.. so i guess not
well so now i am working at bertucci's in westport.. and my girls are gunna be working there too! lol i told jen bout the job.. then amy.. then me and jen decided our sisters should be hostesses.. and the manager jay loves us cuz he's 28 and doesnt give a shit.. so me and jen were like wow we got the family working! well this job should be lots of fun and good pay :) and all of u better come down and visit!!
well 2nite chilled w/ the crew.. amy.tony.amanda.jen.steph.nick.james.austin.ryan.dennis.jimmy.meehan. i love all u guys! *muah*
id update more.. but i got work early tmro.. looks like im working everyday for a while.. dont see any days off anytime soon..
<3caits
Posted at 01:57 am by cait411
Wednesday, June 02, 2004
CRAZINESS!!!
well i will update later and tell ya all about it.. but rite now the site is really slow.. so check back later! :D
<3caits
Posted at 12:04 pm by cait411
Friday, May 28, 2004
seems like everyone's day was shit yesterday lol. sorry guys! im here for u!
well life is absolute shit rite now. my professors were complete dicks.. and i dont kno whats going on rite now. i woke up to my rents fighting as usual.. i cant wait for it to be over.. i jus cant take it anymore. between school>work>parents>certain people> i jus wanna take a gun to my head.. seriously.. im usually not one to cry unless i get really really upset.. and i jus couldnt hold it in anymore.. i jus had to let it out..
it's funny cuz it seems the people you care about the most.. treat u like shit the most. and no matter how much u try to tell them.. they jus keep pushing u away. it's funny how for 2 years someone convinces u they care about u so much.. and then they all the sudden jus stop caring about u. well do what u will.. doesnt make me change how i feel. it's not like i care about u with the same feelings.. obviously.. but i still care about u more than u kno..
i apologized to steve bc our breakup was a little rough. we still need to talk more about it.. so we're gunna talk
i started talking to johnny again lol. he stills feels special he was my first kiss lol hahahaha. we havent talked in years.. but we've run into each other and jus didnt say anything lol. he wanted to kno why i didnt have a boyfriend and i said because they are all mean to me lol and he said he "didnt understand why cuz im soo sweet" :) lol. he was suppose to call me last nite.. and he did.. but my cell turned off cuz it's a piece of shit and i fell asleep so i didnt see his messages online lol.
well i didnt post on austin's bday (which was a couple days ago).. so happy birthday austin! and he's the coolest kid ever bc he's irish and swedish! lol.. im sorry bout ur car hun :( it's my fault
happy birthday steve!
damn is it everyones damn birthday this month?! lol
well im off to go dance around my room blasting music cuz im the only one home rite now lol im such a tool sometimes..
p.s. now both my goldfish died.. already :(
<3caits
Posted at 11:04 am by cait411
Monday, May 24, 2004
well as most of u kno.. im sick and have been housebound a lot (even thou u all like to still call me up and yell at me for not being out lol). well here is some bits and pieces of the past couple days..
i went to the doctor and found out i have bronchitis.. and it started to go into pneumonia. bronchitis is something i had always had and always will have the rest of my life they told me.. and it will randomly pop out when it wants too. if i dont go on medication my lungs will fill and i will sufficate and die. so yeah sounds like fun. im happy w. my cool inhaler cuz it's purple! anyways.. no more cigs!
well yesterday i was cheered up a lot. steve rosado made me chicken soup :) and drove it over to my house. it was really good. then later on aubrey showed up w/ a "care package" for me which was lots of candy, a movie (the muppets movie yay!) a balloon and a card. thanks so much guys ilu!
then later that nite i got to see my ames!! she picked me up and went out for a while. then tony came to my house with ashley g. and ashley b. lol and mike benedetto came and we all went to fairfield beach carnival. me and tony went on the cages!! we were so cramped.. but i made him hold the bar so we spinned like crazy! it was so sick. the best part was when some 5 year olds cut tony and told him off.. then laughed in his face.. i thought he was going to murder them. anyways. the best part of the carnival was.. I GOT THE VERY LAST GOLDFISH!! i was so excited. then we were all going to the movies to meet amanda and steph.. but me and amy wanted to stop at friendlys so she could quit her job lol. and of course me and amy were hysterical bc my ex steve was there which was very surprising lol. he didnt even bother to come over and say hi to me.. whatever.. if he wants to hate me for no reason thats cool. then i ran into this kid who i had a thing w/ back when i worked at friendlys.. by thing i mean we flirted a lot and talked. this was senior year when me and bob broke up for 3 weeks and i thought we were finished for good.. but then me and bob resolved things and got back together and i jus stopped talking to this kid and quit friendlys lol. well he wanted to kno why i never called him and what not.. and he made me promise to call him.. but anyways.. being at friendly's brought back old memories. then when we went to the movies.. i brought my fish in with me!! yay!! lol.. then got back home real late and made him a nice whhome.. :)
so today i get up and go to work.. and yes i havent slept in forever bc i cant sleep at nite bc all i do is cough.. and jus got so fed up with everything.. i quit. YES I QUIT MY JOB! :( so me and jen went to look for a job today at this restaurant
and we are going back tmro.. hopefully i will get this one..
then i decided my goldfish was lonely.. so i went out to the pet store today and BOUGHT ANOTHER ONE!!! he's brown, blue, and orange thou and he is kinda big. the other one is tiny and gold. and yes i named my fish. ones name is "hey" bc u look at him next to the little one and ur like "hey he's huge!" and the other one is named "buddy" bc he is the other ones buddy. but i really named them that because when u put them together it says.. "HEY BUDDY!" when u look at an animal and go to talk to it.. u usually say "hey buddy." so this way when u go and talk to them.. u mention their names ;) hahaha :)
i never payed off my ticket jus bc i forgot and now it doubled and now i wanna shoot myself.. :(
2nite we went all chilled and went to nicks house.. mike nick ryan dennis jen aaron james tony steph amanda steph.. it was cool cuz we all jus did stupid funny shit as always lol. happy bday to steph!
also happy bday to mike benedetto and aubrey!! ilu guys!!
well tmro should be lots of fun.. unpacking my college shit and cleaning my room! lol
summer time is finally here! :D
<3caits
Posted at 12:54 am by cait411
Monday, May 17, 2004
it's jus me against the world..
i need to bitch so here is where im doing it.. so if u dont wanna hear it.. dont read it
life completely sucks rite now..
-im not a jealous person at all.. but my parents think my sister is so much better than me and i cant take it anymore. to them she is perfect. she has perfect grades.. she has perfect everything. the ground she walks on is perfect. all her boyfriends are perfect. everyone always tells me.. either family or friends of the family "oh ur sister is so pretty and petite.. she should be a model" or my grandma obsesses over the fact that she doesnt eat "oh im so worried about ur sister she never eats.. she is so skinny.. im so worried about her" HELLO! SHE DOES IT FOR ATTENTION! ARE U THAT STUPID! i try to be friends with the girl and it's jus impossible to get along w/ her cuz she always has to act like im not good enough for her to talk to.. it's always what i can do for her. whatever
-my parents never pay attention to me. im never home bc i live at school.. but as soon as i come home they like give me chores to do and give me a curfew.. WHICH IS THE SAME AS MY SISTERS. and not even.. my sister was out everynite this weekend.. and i wanted to go out jus one nite and my mom jus bitched at me for wanting to go out so i stayed home bc she said i always wanna go out to late.. and she's not putting up w/ this all summer and doesnt want me living here for the summer. good im better off. so anyways yes i am getting an apartment for the summer.. my dad is also a relator.. so he's getting me a place w. cheap rent for the summer. it's jus im used to living w/ no rules.. and now i have them all over again and it's jus hard for my parents to understand next year im gunna be 20 years old.. they need to learn to trust me and realize im not a little girl anymore. and my parents are all involved on my sister going to college in 2 years and already pickin out what a nice school she is going to go to and they make me feel like shit indirectly bc i go to a state school. i said to my sister in front of my mom "hey why dont u come to southern" and my mom was like "um no ur sister wouldnt go to a school like that" WHAT THE HELL IS THAT SUPPOSE TO MEAN "oh she wants better for herself" at least im going to fucking college and i could have gone to a lot better school.. i did get into them.. but i wanted to go to a state school so i didnt have to pay loans back when i graduated. ohhhhh WHATEVER!
-school. well i did great first semester. my GPA was 3.7.. and i was gunna transfer outta southern to go to a better school for my major and minor.. which is journalism and theatre.. preferably NYC cuz that is where i was going originally. but 2nd semester i jus had a melt down and my classes are so hard bc of my major and it requires a lot out of u and im jus soo burnt out my grades are going to hit rock bottom. i trying hard.. but there is jus too much work i cant handle it. i need to take a break from school.. but i kno that i cant so i jus must keep going. finals are this week and i know im jus gunna screw all my grades up and ahh WHATEVER!
-im gunna have to work my ass off this summer and do nothing but work. like have no life but work. i am taking summer classes and working.. THATS IT. no time for play. i have to pay off an apartment and i found the car im getting.. im jus working on how im gunna make payments.. so im gunna have to be paying for the car and insurance. im gunna be working my life away and still be flat broke. and when im not working be going to school. damn i thought summer was suppose to be fun.. whatever.
-my love life completely sucks lol. i kno thats the least of my worries but i jus wanted to add that in.
well it looks like another nite of crying myself to sleep..
<3caits
Posted at 01:35 am by cait411
Tuesday, May 04, 2004
im back and better then ever! (lol cait ur so gay)
well i am really back bc jen wants me to update! lol so i will do that for her later 2nite out of the kindness of my heart.. lol. ilu jen!
be back later ;)
<3caits
Posted at 04:53 pm by cait411
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
A GARAGE-GURL. Flirt inna Skirt!
You're into loud music, hot guys and
wild fashions. You're most at ease when you've
got all your mates around you and you like to
party. Boys are a game and youre always on the
ball because you make sure youre always number
one.
Your virtues: Confidence, fun nature, sociability.
Your flaws: Loudness, jealous tendency, need for attention..
What kind of girl are you?
Posted at 12:52 pm by cait411
sorry guys.. havent updated in a while..
i still have to update u all on my party (even thou most of u were there) and my actual birthday.
i will do it soon i promise.. if i dont die of this college overload first. college is taking up my life.
that and workin every weekend. SUMMER WHERE ARE U?! :(
<3caits
Posted at 12:53 am by cait411
Thursday, April 08, 2004
LISTEN UP BC THIS IS THE LAST TIME IM DEALING W. UR SHIT!
alrite listen all u little high schoolers who have nothing better to do then read my journal or im me and bitch at me. i am DONE w. the drama.. i left that shit back in high school. my room mate put it best what she said: Tarzilla4: tell them that high school called, and they want their drama back! haha i love u tara! anyways.. to that certain person who THOUGHT they would be cool and try to tell me off.. i went out w. mike before u did.. and dont want him back.. i moved on to bigger and better things.. so GET OVER IT! and u have the nerve to say to me: BeLLiSiMa740: hahahahahahahahahahha alright you beauty who got that hot model BOB listen here bitch.. i kno u were jus jealous i got bob instead of u.. and believe me.. thats why i went to bob instead of trying to persue mike bc he was 100 times better than ur boyfriend will ever be. and u can try to make up shit that me and mike supposedly did and say shit.. but keep running ur mouth bc kno one cares. if u really are that insecure and think i am trying to steal ur boyfriend (whom i havent talked to since we graduated) then u got serious problems. no one likes u.. and now i understand why. and no, im not going to "show up to sj on tues" bc i have better things to do then to skip class to go see a fat ass at a school i want nothing to do w. anymore. so why dont u concentrate on losing weight rather then starting drama? ok? bye hun!
please dont contact me ever again.. or a leave a comment here. thanks! oh and concentrate on pleasing ur boyfriend so he doesnt have to run to the whore house anymore!
Posted at 03:03 am by cait411
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